After you have ‘Churned’ using the above Kriya and Self-Inquiry practices in the first part of your practice, you must take some time to exclusively burn in your Heart. Do not try to escape any feelings that arise. Be true to your Self.
You should allow what needs to come out, come out, because Churning will bring a lot of things to the surface. And you should not go directly to the witnesser, because then you are bypassing the burning process.
You must embrace the burning process.
You must feel the burn in your Heart, the burn in your Being. All the vasanas, all the tendencies, need to be burned completely.
Stay in SILENCE when the burning is happening.
Burn for a few minutes every day. Recall some memory that you have, and try to burn with it. Feel how you ‘associate’ with an object, with a person, or an event, and then feel the ‘dissociation’ from them. Then try to burn with the ‘association’… allow yourself to burn with it.
You will start to feel great freedom as you progress with your burning practice and make this a part of your life, as another part of your sadhana.
Remember, you are not free unless, and until, you can look forward to your discomforts.
This does not mean to say that you must invite your discomforts, it only means that you are very accepting of them. You could be shaken, at times, but you are a warrior. You are not trying to escape discomfort. You could be feeling rawness. You could be shaken. This is normal, there is nothing wrong. The brave person, the brave sadhak, is the one who is able to embrace their discomfort without trying to project it on to anyone. You completely welcome it. You welcome the stiffness. You welcome the heaviness, the rawness that you feel — the shakiness that you feel — you completely welcome it. Why? — why shouldn’t you?
As you progress, you will see that you were in resistance to your own Self all of this time. And once you are able to accept yourself in the totality of your Being, then this no longer becomes an issue.
Nothing can irritate you outwardly — unless you let it.
Inwardly, you may feel many things, but at the same time, as you graduate into deeper and deeper levels of your Self, you will start to welcome all discomfort, so much so that you will start to feel a new sense of freedom in ‘suffering’.
You will begin to feel unimaginable love for yourself, and others, as you embrace the totality of your Self. You will start to feel love for everyone because they are giving you an opportunity to bring everything that needs to be burned in front of you. So, instead of blaming anybody, you should get to work, which is to burn!
Sincerely burn. Honestly burn. It is a gift for mankind. Earth is a Tapa Bhumi. You are here to be in Tapa. Tapa means ‘burning’. You are not just here to enjoy and bhog. That is not the only purpose.
When we begin our spiritual life, or when we are into spiritual life, we feel our life should always be lived in love and joy, don’t we? Well, it will be. Because along with this burning, there is great love. The kind of feeling, the sweet burning, that arises within you when you do not see your beloved for a long time. It is a burning, but it is very sweet, that is how it becomes.
However, initially, it is not like that. Initially all the stories will come, ‘Oh, he irritated me’, ‘Oh, she irritated me’, ‘Oh, I need to do this’, ‘I need to fix this’, or ‘I am going to behave like that’. We all get swayed into a story so easily.
But, when you understand that, “Hey, this is me, this is happening to me”, you should become silent, you should not say anything.
So be silent — observe what is happening within you when you get ‘triggered’ by a person or event.
That feeling/sensation is you, breathing inside of you. There is another you, breathing inside of you, at that time, telling you “come to me, be with me, attend to me. Do not throw me out like that. Do not throw me out to the other. Attend to me. I want you to attend to me”. This is what it is trying to tell you.
And when you listen to it, listen to that feeling, that sensation, it starts to merge into a sweet love, it transforms into that. That is what happens. But you all have got an idea about how to do this. Whenever you get triggered, whenever you feel irritated — now these are the labels that I am telling you. There is no such thing as ‘irritation’. There is no such thing as ‘anger’. These are labels that are applied. The fact is, it is YOU. Remember that. Just remember that. One step, only one step.
If anger arises, if irritation arises, understand… ‘it is me’.
Now, do not try to judge yourself and think, ‘Oh, it is a bad me’. No, do not say, ‘Oh, it is a bad me’ coming out. No, it is not the bad ‘you’ coming out. It is just You. You are not bad. Nobody is bad. It is just YOU.
Now, if it is just You, without any labels, what else can you do with it, except merge with it, be with it? And feel it. Feel what it is trying to tell you. Listen to it. What does it want to convey to you? Listen to it. Before you begin to judge it as ‘bad’, why not just listen to it first?
Maybe it has a message you are not aware of? Maybe it is trying to give you some message?
You are trying to give yourself a message, but, you have a habit. You do not ‘hear’ the other person, so how can you ‘hear’ your Self ? It has become a habit… you judge first… you have opinions first. And then you ‘hear’ the other person. So, it has become a habit, and that is why you have become so separated from your Self.
You have become fragmented inside, and separated not only from others, who are YOU only, the one Consciousness, but also separated from your Self.
And that is why you have no peace. Because you do not hear your Self, what you are trying to tell yourself. You do not listen to your inner voice.
Remember, every time any emotion takes place, instead of labeling it, or trying to fix it, or trying to do anything with it, first listen to what it says, what it wants to say. Try to be with it for some time.
Try to understand it. It is a language you do not understand yet. It is like a part of you is speaking Russian. But you do not understand it yet. Get to know the language. Once you get to know it, you will be able to understand yourself perfectly.
And then you may be able to understand everybody in this world, because, it will prove that none of us are separate from each other. The one universal Consciousness, breathing in different bodies, appearing in different bodies, but all are One.